My Heart

I know that it’s there, but then again I don’t….

I can barely hear it, feel it, its beating is ever so faint…

What I once had is now lost, seemingly to never be found again…

It is battered, bruised, and it has been broken time and time again…

I have it hidden away, what used to be the essence of me…

It’s now something that I barely even know…

I keep it covered with my hand; it’s too damaged to show…

It’s been stepped on, misused, pulled apart and carelessly abused…

I have had it broken and through many life storms it has endured…

I locked it away to protect what little life it was able to maintain…

Promising myself to never share or give it again…

A Heart is meant to be free, to feel all that it can feel, to love and to be loved…

Though it is damaged, my heart yearns for life again…

When I look at you, feel you, touch you, smell you, and taste you…my hand begins to slip away…

Wanting to reveal this tattered heart that I have been too ashamed to share…

My grip is beginning to loosen, no matter how much I fight to maintain my hold…

My heart is fighting to survive, to heal, and to experience the love it thinks that it deserves…

With great trepidation, I am slowly allowing my hold to fall away!

In an attempt to show you a glimpse of what I have been clutching so tightly, hiding, and trying to protect from harm…

It is not a beautiful sight, it is held together with duct tape, rubber bands, and glue…

It is shapeless, full of cracks and tears…

The beating is faint, and it is so, so weak, but it wants to trust YOU!!!

So, please be gentle, handle it with care, and know that it is fragile.

They say that time heals all wounds…

I pray for time and healing…

I also pray that you have a gentle, slow hand…

So that someday this old beat up heart of mine will be able to fully love and be loved  again…

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