You laughed at my hardtimes…
I said nothing.
You sabotaged anything that was put into place to help me advance…
I said nothing.
Called me a dummy,
I said nothing.
Overlooked me…
I said nothing.
Talked shit about me to your bff and I heard you, but…
I said nothing.
Hid food so I couldn’t eat,
I said nothing.
Gave me the cold shoulder, treated me as if I was disgusting, like I am less than you.
And still I said nothing.
Talked about me behind my back…
Nothing
Pretended to care, when your actions showed the truth that your mouth wouldn’t tell.
And yet I said nothing.

Truth is I was already tattered and torn when I met you. This you knew.

My self esteem was at a low, low. You knew this too.

Abandonment is my Achilles heel and makes it very difficult for me to get close to anyone. You knew.

I met you at my lowest without much of anything be it material or spiritual. This you definitely knew.

I confided in you, blindly put my trust in you, and did a free fall into this new life.

Try as I might to unhear the things you think I don’t.
I see more than you would ever know. The fact that I am the butt of your inside jokes is cruel to say the least.
How do you find competition with someone who has nothing?

It’s sad. It hurts.

You have broken me, broken my spirit, broken what was left of my will. Congratulations!!!!! YOU WIN!!

While you are still throwing darts with your nose in the air, you won’t even notice the tears that I cry. You won’t see the empty shell that remains of me.

As a matter of fact, I know that you abuse will continue because that’s who you truly are.

And I will still…say nothing.

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